Chernobyl

"Thousands of years ago a young couple in love lived in a garden called Eden, and God placed a tree in the garden and told them not to eat from the tree..."
And I knew in my soul he was right.

This is the biblical equilivent of Chernobyl... we have all been living in the aftermath and fall out ever since.

What confusion Adam and Eve must have had, the terror, hurt, fear, etc...

What God must have been feeling, knowing what would be required to win back the hearts of his children.

Abba...

Passing of Time

I do apologize for the laps in time. Aparrently 2 months have come and gone since I last chose to write. But I do so hate writing about nothing, and even more so having nothing to write about. That tells me that I'm not spending enough time thinking, which worries me.

As things finally get finished out at JAVA, and I am on the verge of being offered a salary+ I begin to want out. Mostly to just move to Colorado, get a job at a coffee shop in the afternoons, and waiting tables at night, but not having to worry about anything when I go home. Simply being able to go to work when I'm supposed to and not worry about it any other times. To be quite transient in my living, and worry about very little.

However, I also find that life to be unsatisfactory for a certain, beautiful female has caught my eye and I aim to make her my bride. So to have this angel of beauty as my own I must sacrifice somewhere. To be free of debt, and able to go where I want I must submit to the man for a bit, living the life he chooses for me. One day though I will break free and scatter to the four winds, taking my bride with me and leaving everything else where I was that morning when we woke.

A different life becons me from the distance but the now must be occupied by the necessary. I long for the day of studies and thinking but today tells me, "not yet, not yet".

May the Lord lead and direct your path, and may you follow him out of love.

~Hayne